I am not particularly prayerful or religious but for the past few weeks I have been asking God -- the Universe -- to step in and restore me to my equilibrium.
There is only so much a girl's mind can do. I may appear smart and in control to many people but in fact I could be in shambles, doubting and questioning and screaming in desperation at finding no answers now.
It's quite a burden to believe everything depends on our own efforts. I have given up -- I am too human, too frail, too dumb I guess. Exhausted, too, and sick of it.
I need an intervention to whack me back into shape. I have been off my balance for far too long and it's not a nice place to be in.
This is my shoutout, my plea, my prayer.